Sinning

I know it is Satan that is inviting me
hissing away in my sad soul
I know it is you that makes me suffer
I know it is me that gives you power
I know how I CAN stop you
yet can not catch myself to stop you
In all the disappointments in my life
finally I realize
their will be more
just do not know from where
then you Satan will come back
trying to give me alternative of relief
then I know it is you inviting me
to what you disguise as peace
yet I know it is not peace
but coax my self in to accepting
knowing the consequence is sadness
followed by repentance
a battle of wars is going on within me
until I submit
then peace will descend on me
That will only happen
when I
refuse your invitation
Satan your only strong
when I give you strength
your only strong
when I accept your invite
Your like a drug
that sewed it self with in me
I let go off you for a few days
then your back again
only because I allowed you
only because I gave you permission
this is no ones fault
but mine
only I can stop sinning
only I can stop your whispers
when will I finally stop giving in ?
such a vicious circle I am in
tired inside of allowing you to do this
tired of giving you permission to make me suffer
the suffering I am in
is cause of my actions
so Allah help me stop
give me the strength to overcome my weaknesses

I'm sick of it !

I'm sick of it !

seeing oppression
me not being able to do anything
I'm sick of it !


I'm sick of it !

culture that only makes life more difficult
then needed
I'm sick of it !

I'm sick of it !

people sitting and watching oppression
something can be done yet nothing is done
I'm sick of it !

I'm sick of it !

seeing mothers bringing up their children on material ideas
when they should be brought up on humility
I'm sick of it !

I'm sick of it !

woman who only talk about shallow things
when subject is changed
it only returns to what they brought the other day
I'm sick of it !


I'm sick of it !

Muslim groups each one claiming 'it' is right
pointing fingers at each other
each one saying the other is false
I'm sick of it !

I'm sick of it!

coming across so called religious people
who are arrogant , obnoxious and self righteous
I'm sick of it !

I'm sick of it !

watching the world being brainwashed by the media
watching Satan polishing their thoughts
watching Satan confirming their ideas

............................I tell you ....I'm sick of it