I wish

I wish I was satisfied
I wish I did not have to know about the suffering
I wish I understood why everything is the way it is
I wish these feelings would let me go
I wish I can bounce back from these feelings
I wish I can avoid a certain someone
I wish I can smile knowing it is genuine
I wish I knew how to be someone
but me
I wish I can just turn back to the light
I wish I can just except my situation
it seems the older I get
bigger the issues
I wish things do not have to be like this
I wish I can stop tormenting my mind like this
I want to stop sinning
but cannot seem to
I wish I can just stop wishing
I wish I can stop fantasing
and just submit back to reality