Saturday 7 July 2007

My thought's

I walk around
looking as if I am living
I'm here physically
spiritually I'm somewhere else

I don't feel I'm here
I feel I am in some other world
am I deluded ?
and everyone else isn't?
what is this feeling that I feel ?
I try to empty my mind
from a huge bucket that sits by my side
it seems to me the more I try to empty
the more it fills with lots more wild thoughts
that tangle one another

people speak to me in black and white tones
but I know its not like that
cant they see all the different other colours ?
people just give me this look of
'oh well I don't know what your talking about'

I walk around
looking as if I am living
I'm here physically
spiritually I'm somewhere else

I observe people
rather then judge them
I snatch a piece of paper
trying to empty that bucket again
that likes to fill again and again

if only my wild thoughts would untangle
so I break free from my thoughts

I walk around
looking as if I am living
I'm only here physically
spiritually am somewhere else

I feel I'm far, far away in some other world
that world is my mind with Allah
talking to him my wild thoughts
untangling each one
working it out like working out a maze
placing each thought in the right order
eventually I will get their
figuring out exactly whats bothering my poor soul
then I will take a break
have a long sip from a sweet cup of tea

BUT not getting deluded
that it is officially over
it will never be over
not until I die
only then
only then
will the fight with my thoughts be over .



3 comments:

The Arcadian said...

nice poem! go easy on the apostrophes though :p

oh, and add my new blog title, it's no longer latin :)

youngMuslimah said...

assalam'alaikum

wow, beautiful masha'Allah. this poem reflects the current stage of my life to the tee..

Thejinsla said...

=]

Brilliant.

Well done.