'Im the queen of confusion '

I'm the queen of confusion
nothing makes sense anymore
i wish i knew why ?
i have far to many self realizations
they came out of know where
without no warning

I'm the queen of confusion
sure am the queen of confusion
these self realizations have changed me
changed me forever
or so that's how i feel

I'm the queen of confusion
its gulping me down in the confusion of nothingness
I'm despairing
i know i shouldn't

I'm the queen of confusion
so please help me
help me empty this mind
help me rid my mind of this confusion

I'm the queen of confusion
its going to take me into a deep black hole
if i don't stop this confusion now
i will be forever gone
gone into madness

I'm the queen of confusion
this confusion is pushing me
pushing me towards something
am not quite sure

im the queen of confusion
buts its exceptable to be confused
because.....

I know one day i will wake up and all of these feelings of confusion as i like to call it will all make sense one day .Then i will be filled with excitement and joy . I will feel i have succeeded in understanding something , something deep , very deep within me.
This isn't about me this about my journey to my lord
on this journey i must except that i will have to battle many thoughts
that will try to lead me astray
every time i think iv fallen
somehow i manage to pick myself up , as i do i catch the rope of allah .For as long as i hold on to it tight i know
that is my sanctity :)