Trials

Allah's trials just keep on getting bigger Now the trial am going through is the hardest ever makes me scared what the next trial is going to be ? Oh Allah i know you are trying to teach me something Please let me figure it out so i can taste peace to be patient ? to leave ? that is the question Please let me figure it out so i can taste peace I'm getting tired i know i shouldn't complain if i don't complain to you then to whom can i complain ? My mind is running wild analysing each and every situation Scared of failing this trial Allah scared as hell iv failed trials before this I don't want to fail this one I hate regretting I'm tired of learning learning through pain please get me out of this molehill that i have dug so deep I feel like falling inside covering myself with whatever soil is their 'thou shall not exist anymore' The world is better off without me it doesn't need me with my dramatic 'drama' scenes of my life But off course that is haram Islam teaches you to face things rather then run away decisions have to be made whether their wrong or right you must deal with the consequences sadly that's life .